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I have a problem. I am not happy with my life. For some reason, I wanted to blame DH for that. I feel like I am lazy, and don't get done the things that I want to get I haven't accomplished anything that I've wanted to accomplish with me life. Maybe it is a quarter life crisis. Although there are problems with our marriage, it is time for me to be honest about what is and isn't my fault. There are problems in our marriage that are his fault. I will not let him off the hook for those without working those out. But my problems are, by and large, my own. I am an emotional eater and I eat when I am upset with him, but that does not mean he is to blame for my weight and self esteem issues. If anything, he is a champion for my self esteem. And I am lazy. There are no two ways about it. That is hwy I have not accomplished many of my personal goals. It is not because he doesn't make enough money and I have to pick up the slack. There is plenty of time in the day for me to pick up his slack as well as do my own things. It is true that I want more of adventurous life, but why don't I create it myself. Go to the playground more often. Go to the beach and the library and the park. Instead of leaving him and being forced into an adventure, create the life that you want right here. It might be harder, but it might also be more rewarding.